ITS just I am going craZY  , hOW DO MEN DO IT? 

At last I feel like a women but what shitty timing now that my husband is thousands of miles away.  What do you do? is there a right way to go about it and is it even appropriate to express I mean most people besides myself dont just start a conversation up to someone at the bus stop with I am a raging hormone.  well any how I am surrounded with ladies and thats real cool if I was a man. however the appropriate talk seems to be the major of conversation, which is so boring right now in my life.  I need real talk closer to the ruth talk with ideology with that will get me through.  I did go by a verse in the bible that talked about abstance is bougus concept and I meditated a while with it.  I found that its true why preach about the one major instinctual behavior, in a way that is hypocritical.  Yes Sex is a need not just a want during certain points of life? I love the lord only to find out I am a sinner till I get ride of this fleshly clothing.  So what know?  I want to explore my feelings deeper in writting .. life is so lame sometimes! I dont even have a peronal computer so I could express with fullness the realm I am entering in on.  God I pray I make it through o.  hereses to living life and loving god at the same time.  iF i could reincarnate any individual right know I liked to know what king David  says about being sexually active.  Well any how thats how I feel maybe in time I can elaborate.  lol anniestine

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who knows what he has?

as if it matters… wow doesnt it suck when you feel this way? Ahhhhhhhhh , Ok I think Im all right. what do I want to write? Shit all day long I think of good shit and now look at this … sucks!
hahahahahahah, ok.

today is a day filled with what was that. Kinda LIKE THE DAY WHEN THAT GUY WHIPPED OUT HIS you know his thing!-o-ling, ho my gosh! was I so unsurprised and equally suprised to see it big you know whatta. but gee I still havent gotten over it completely this happeded four days past. Well I did complement the guy, it was a nice pieace of work e he was so bashfully happy when I complimented him on his stock.
Im just a little upset cause he was a hot! and well you know what if we could of gotten to know each other I might of had a chance to have a good time, but who knows were hes been?

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looking close and finding nothing

today is filled with activitiy I would say to the negative but I WONT oH shit is wont a negative .. my not so schooled thought is the negative contects words can predict the day . so dont act all uppity just to have a great day . try saying the truth positive or not without usinng negitive dictated words. The day will form diffrently, even if its not the best day it will be a day worth living . Love you all who are not listing and peace be with you anniestine

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Fleshly bodies exisist

What is it exactly that keeps man from evolving?
I am from the belife that man will surely evolve. Just as the earth must clean itself the existance of man seems to be just the same. one certainty is true we all must experiance a death of the flesh body we now posses. This is a scary thought to some and a reality to most. what is there inbetween. life and death. is a simple term. Existance and Nonexistance is a completely diffrent subject matter. Death of the flesh is an evolvement of being . man certainly has not shown great strides in evolvement over his human existance however the mind of man I suspect has evolved. Man has realities now that in earlier pre space age periods man has always challanged thought and it is still in occurance today. though the thought of mans exisitance is just on whos mind anyway? I’m positive there are many who have podered the ideal of existance out side of fleshly bodies, but just how many people ever get true conformation of the matter while they are breathing air?

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